Hello, long time no write.

Memories

Love
It like the double-edge sword.
It can place you on top of the world.
But
It can also cut you.
Deeper than any wound you have ever know.
You can live,but yet you are death.
You can see, but yet you are blind.
You can talk, but with no voice.
You can breath, with your breath but even has been taken away.
But you can love but yet you remain with no heart.
Sometimes a pass relationship can hurt you so bad.
You simply want to escape.
You find refuge, solace, some place you can hide.
Run away from from the world.   

                            (Memories;DanKhooProductions)

" Its take only a few minute to crush on someone, an hour to love someone, a day to love someone, but it takes lifetime to forget someone"__TRUE__

randomly

·         Lately, my friend was emo-ing and struggling for the definition of the word" best friend". It let me remember back that was me last time. Although i can give advice to her but don't i could make it on my own or not. To be frank, the "best friend" is quite a contradiction matter. You wish that the people you treat them well will definitely the things you get back would be same as what you had contributed. But as our age growing, this matter is like what children would always happened. We can find other ways to let us feel better. The word "best friend" is not definite  as an obligate, it is as treat them sincerely and do not hope anythings back when you contributed. That was wrong definition as an obligation and desire for  return.

·         "Only best friend would show their true selves, they share deep and dark secrets, it comes as a whole package But once you get to know all of that, you need to accept the flaws, and those who manage to do so become better friends. Being a best friend,do it need able to change someone to the way how you live or to change for someone? What would the factors for someone classified as a best friend? Time, influences and understanding. When problems happen, resolution would be the important part of the whole process. The determination of do not give up the relationships between us."

Moody

I was so sad and moody today because all my housemate(family members) graduated. The feeling was mix in my mind, happy is because they done it finally. Sad is because it is an over for all of us here and this is a full stop for the day we used together to study and chit chatting. I promise to myself that there are no tear drop during the convocation. i done it when they went back, but my mood suddenly decreasing and i felt i was alone here again.
I was regret that why when that time i can't used that time to appreciate the days we had together and always       used to arguing and quarrel. Seriously i'm down now. No one know!

I feel nothing here without u all. I need my family members.  

Blog

I was wondering why people like to write their blog?? At first i created this is just for fun to posting my matters share to others. After posted some articles, i felt that this was not the only purpose for posting blog. I think posting blog at certain period is useful and meaning for my future. Sometime when i'm free, i will likely to read back all the blogs that i had wrote. Sometime it let me went back to my last memories that i have almost forgotten. Sometime i felt that the way i wrote my blog quite childish of my thinking when that time.

Time pass very fast,  it's almost the end of my uni life. This semester will be my last studied semester in UMT. I have things that can't put down here and will be gonna super miss here although i always used to complaint here. After this semester, everything will be end up the stories here. Friends, lectures and the peaceful life here. After this we will go back to our own life. My feeling is mixed, because i really hope that time pass quickly so that i can go back to my sweetly home town. But the other side, i couldn't left my comrades that used to fight together.

Anyway, this is just a small matter for everyone of us. Because parting is just a chapter of our life. Sure everyone will face it. At last, i wish all my friends can success in their future!!  

Tolerate and Fuss

    What do you understand about the word of "tolerate" and the word of "fuss"??

    I think these words' definition is easily to be understand but seriously it is hard to be implemented. I'm the one who trying hard to tolerate and not to fuss a small matter. Sometimes, don't fussing because it will cause you to be a unhappy people. But i'm wondering why people will not tolerate for a small matter instead of they choosing to care so much. Will they feel happy??  No wander those of them have a lot of worries and i wish i'm not to be this. That why i trying my hard to tolerate. 


"I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do. I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do. "

by Robert A. Heinlein

Everythings Change

What is the meaning of my blog theme? EVERYTHING CHANGE?

Is it means that i have change of myself due to the changing of environment and age? Actually i also don't know why i have this theme. i just saw back the pictures that i have taken during my secondary school time and form 6 time. It really surprising me that what i have done during that time. Just realized that it was not me, it totally different of me now. No one will know what's my past.

Actually, i have seldom have best friends in my life although i'm closing with everyone. My life actually is less of sense of security. I have normally with depend to others. I remember that when i was form 2, i have change to top class due to my better result.I was cried very hard that time because i'm forced to leave my best friends. I was alone during my form 2 although it is a good class and good environment to study. But no ones know that i'm alone that time. I have been suffer for 2 years that time. Besides, my form 1 best friends told me that i have change a lot because i have friends with the students that have better results and ignored her. No ones know i was very sad when she told me this because she is always in my mind although we are different class. One thing i can said that i will never forget you once i treat you as my best friends although whatever you have done to me. Best friends will never change.

Due to the increasing of my age, i have change to be more mature without cry out easily. I swear to myself that i won't drop my tears easily. But it is a lie,i never change from this also.

2012 March

It's has been long time that i have never update my blog. Of course there are very bored to start my blog with this sentences. ahhhahhahha....

Well, time pass very fast. It's already in the the year of 2012 which a year that very uncertainty. Why do i said that it's an uncertainty year? Because in this year, starting in my sem 6, it already full with meetings, discussions and ASSIGNMENT!!!!!

Actually what meetings that make me so busy?? hahhahhaa... that not only came from one source. Because i have involve myself in my university with the program of Accounting Carnival as a position of Maketing Manager. Besides, i'm a roles to my high school devision and student division in SGM. As a PIC of student division, i have plenty of work regading to motivate my junior and involve myself hard in the exhibition that regarding to the topic of "Seeds of Hope" and "Tranforming in Human spirit without Nuclear". I really do hope i can do well the activities that i have taken.

For the discussion and assignments , it's really damn crasy works that i have.
It's upgrading me to be a very busy people.hhahha.. although i know that this is the fundamental responsilities as an "UNIVERSITY"S STUDENT". But to be frank, why don't our lecturer decreses some of the task a little bit, so that i can take a deep breath. If not, i'll die because of that damn assignments.

Hopefully i can take a long travel that can let me to release all of my stress. Go some place that full with natural scenes in Malaysia that can let me take a fresh deep breath such as Cameron Highlands. Because i already bored with the city life... Hope that also i'll go there with my love ones.

Time past

Yesterday i was told by my friend that we have already past 2 years ago after form 6. When that i was shocked when i heard what she said to me.I was wondering why time can past so fast as i don't the heart to accept the truth. I thought i have just finish form 6 only and don't wonder that i have been in local-U for 2years already.

In this 2 years pass, i couldn't forget what was happened last 2 years and the happiness memories that we have last time.. Seriously it hard, but the only thing that depressed me is we seldom contact to each others among the friends. During holiday i dunno y i don't have the mood to hang out instead to stay at home alone. Maybe it is more comfortable i think, i used the time to pass with my family members as i could.I'm have the heart to help my father compare to last time that don't want to help him as once.But i will try my heart to go hang out with those who is my best friends.

In this 2 years, i have busy with those crazing assignment and exam. Those stuffs make me don't have the time to think much. after coming in to uni, i realize that how people can take granted to the benefits and betray their friends. I realized among all friends doesn't means can be treated as friends. There have no point to waste these kind of time to care what others people have said about as long as i'm happy with my decision.

再讲你啊！

那你和她有什么分别呢？

我就是这样的

对人不对事

你自己反省啦！

和你讲话会很累。

you are so....

Contradictions

Fake

limitation

Everyone have the limit.

If u over my limitation, i'm sure you will kena from me.

Now i already have the high level of api to release.

if u come, get prepare for yourself.

My feeling

TIRED

I have already get bored of this kind of life.

People asked me "don't care too much"

"It's better for me to forget it rather than get angry to others."

"It's not worth at all to get angry."

But to be frank, it's hard for me to overcome it by myself although it's a small stuffs which might others' think.

i have already get bored to contribute always.

It's is not worth for me to contribute as much for those who din appreciate it at all.

It's fair for us who always contribute?

i have get bored of this kind of life

and being tired.

How would it be on my future?

i 'm get bored with the stress life that i having now.

and i don't wish it will continue in the rest of my life

Being as an accounting students it's normal already will full with stress and cases to settle.

although i was told by my parents accounting field create more future.

it is true?? definitely it is true.

but is it the life that i wish for?

i was wondering what it's going to be in my future?

is it have a better salary or being interesting in this field??

am i right with the path that i have been taken now??

all this conflict appear in my mind...

i have so busy with this kind of life when i'm study.

so i was wondering how going to be on my work life later?

Am I right??

时间长了，不去联系，感情真的会变淡…

我始终很相信这句话！

有些人，总是会慢慢的淡出你的世界，慢慢的在你的记忆里模糊…

因为时间，因为距离，因为不联系…

朋友说，她的手机成了一个闹钟，电话是接不到的，短信只是一个月偶尔的收到…这也是大多数人的现状！

FB上，清一色的手机挂着，我隐身着，你看不见，你隐身着，我亦看不见，很多人宁愿找些陌生人或者不熟悉的人聊天，也不愿意和以前的好朋友聊天。

不知道聊什么，也不知道从何聊起…时间长了，渐渐的，疏远了，陌生了…

虽然曾经彼此之间很熟悉，但是现在却多了一层隔阂，FB上见面只剩下一个简单的“最近好吗？”“恩，还好，就那样”，没有下文了…

很多时候都是开着FB，看着那么多的朋友在线，却只会对着屏幕发呆，因为不知道说什么…

多长时间没和朋友们发短信了？多长时间没和朋友们打电话了？又多长时间没约上几个好友出来聚聚了？

是什么？让大家越来越疏远了。

是什么？让大家越来越淡漠了？

是什么？让曾经彼此之间很要好的朋友，如今即使见了面也没有什么话说了…

时间、距离、不联系…是感情最可怕的敌人！

时间久了，感情会变淡。距离长了，感情会疏远！这是真真切切的，你我不可逆转的…

No plastic bag and polystyrene in Penang

From 1st of January 2011 onwards, Penang(Malaysia) became the 1st state in Malaysia which ban plastic and polystyrene at hypermarket, supermarket and even the hawker stall.

Some of them might think whether this event is bringing benefit or problem? A consumer, said it was troublesome to buy the 20-sen plastic bags and would be a problem to last-minute shoppers and foreign tourists who do not come prepared with their own canvass or cloth bags when heading to hypermarkets in Penang.

From my own side, i think it actually brings benefit to our mother earth.As we know, there are a lot of changes in weather of our earth such as flooding, earthquakes,global warming. All of this actually came from human being,people wasted the plastics and used polystyrene which will seriously affect the environment.

So, as a conclusion i definitely support this events although it's brings some trouble for us but it wasn't a big problem.A small action might change and save the environment, why don't we think the solution to save the earth rather than complaint it?

2011

wah!!.. i have long time din update my blog..

since now i m a little bit free so i decided to post some in my profile..
wah!!! almost wanna reach 1 year i have been leave my hometown to other state..
the busy life in university which were full of tutorial, assignment and the worst is exam...
all this things almost wanna make me damn crazy with my current life..
all of this condition make me forget the pain of leaving my hometown.
i could adapt it myself..
i didn't cry alone even the raining day..

i become strong..
but as i think its hard 4 me to overcome it
because i m a person who very slow to receive the environment changes..
but everythings is change
i change to be more mature
mayb they all still think i m like a child.
i change to be more independent
i change to be more understand PEOPLE..
but the changes of somethings that i wont like..
i hate the time pass very fast..
i hate the forgotten of pass memories..
i hate we not that close that last time..
i hate we have boundaries when we are in conversation
i hate i have nothing to talk to u all..
and the last i hate i have over teenagers period.
i really hope everythings will remains the same..

include the relationship between us..

everything was changed

The passing of time full with tutorial and exam

allowed me to forget you

i was asked my my friend

did you still have the feeling to him

i was wondering what answer i gonna give

because i really dunno what answer i can said

sometime i will remember the time we have together

the memories are always in my mind.

I taught the other guys maybe can let me forget the existing of you

But so far i couldn't find it..

and i hoping one day i will treat you as my good friend only is enough.

although we live very near but we can't manage to meet up together

is not i don't want is because i don't dare to face you

maybe i'm the one who bertepuk tangan sebelah tak berbunyi...

My Pet

When i saw these pictures, i have think back to my dog that pass away 1 year ago.

Since From 4 i have a cute pet which is dog dog.Its really a cute dog, he is a male dog. The colour of his skin is jz like this colour which is in brown colour.I called him A-wong. He play an important in my life.Knowing that i very scare being alone at house alone especially evening and heavy rain.He accompany me when i feel alone. He accompany me when i study.I like to use my scooter fetch him go hang out. Sometimes i like to kacau him by tread his tails.hahhahaha... Sometimes i like bully him. i deliberate don give him eat his dinner by putting the dinner after my house gate. So, he jz can see but cant eat...hahhahaaa.I like to see his action to pull the dinner by using his hand...

But unfortunately, he was pass away 1 year ago. When that time i really very sad.He have to leave me forever.

There are thousand of miss him while i saw these pictures although these pictures are not him.

Pulau Bidong

My school which is University Malaysia Terengganu was held an activity to the new students of UMT. This program is called Survival Laut which means the participants shouldn't take any chemical stuffs going to that island. These are include shampoo, body shampoo, face facial and sun blocked.This program is jz like Robinson Crusoe who were lived in an island that without any facilities.In this program, students were not entitle to bath. And the worst things is they have to sleep in camps together with the sand.They organized many activities during that three days such as snorkeling, canoeing, hiking and fishing. All of thats were sea activities.Actually, it was quite wonderful program but the only thing that i cant tahan is i was no bath for three days.GOSH...

Here are some pictures of Pulau Bidong.There are quite nice environments..