Leave alone

27 June 2009 6pm

going to Sungai Ara

to juin liang tuition centre there

coz he wanna had a dinner wif me then

drop me at sungai Nibong bus terminal...

he said wanna bring me eat bak kut teh

cz over terengganu i cant find any of khinzir...

but at the end he bring me eat hawker stall food pulak...

haizzz....

but i appreciated i gt such good fren...

thanks...

when reached bus terminal....

i tot i will leave alone when i received the bus ticket...

but suddenly my best fren:

zi yin

swee heong

appear in front of me..

i shocked

i din expected they all will come sending me...

when that time i very happy

they all help me carried out all my luggages..

thanks dear...

act i very assure that i m not willing to leave

but no choice this is my own decision

going to terengganu to study...

they always console me

"this is jz a part of our life,

its jz a beginning,

u should appreciated that u r accepted by local university..."

FINALLY

i have to leave....

i went up the bus wif exciting feeling...

act in my heart i really not willing to leave..

i have to ge ge act lik excited going to there...

the purpose i do that is prevent they all cry out...

i wave hand to them

n said bye bye to them...

saying alone inside the bus...

"zi yin bye bye,

swee heong bye bye,

lay fang bye bye,

ling xiang bye bye,

juin liang bye bye,

n the last is mummy,papa,mei mei,ah ma

bye bye..."

Then while i saying bye bye to them,

my tears start drop...

when that time i such lik wanna give up d n not going

so far to study...

but i suddenlly recall back the water bottle that ziyin gave me...

on the bottle there gt show "don give up".

so i keep back n continue go to terengganu.

wish that i can wearing a "squre cap" coming back to Penang.

My parents sure will proud of me...

Y my parents din follow me go terengganu???

Y i must going there alone???

if i going wif my parents sure will less down my burden

at least gt ppl can help me carry my luggages.

act i very sad when whole bus student gt ppl accompany them go Umt.

but no choice i have to more independent...

my mum said she wanna accompany me go..

but i said never mind i can go alone..

"mum, don worry me...'

Act i more worried them

if dunno how to go back penang

cz almost here are malays n they even don understand malays languages..

means i more worried abt them n always asking myself if they come wif me

" how they going back to penang??"

" are they reach d??"

"are they lost??"

lots of questions sure will appear on my mind...

in other words

i willing to leave alone...

Going terengganu road r staff

the road r not straight like high-ways.

i cant sleep sweet in the bus there

so when i awake i sure will recall back all the sweet memories

that i have in penang.

a while only my tears start drop again...

when zi yin call, i almost wanna cry out d...

but i told my self i have to strong.

she told me she cried jz now

when i leave.

manatau i go console her pulak...

i almost wanna cry out when she call me...

i call her quickly hang up the call..

i dun 1 let her noe i wanna cry d...

coming terengganu i have cry a lots...

i seldom cry

cz i like smile..

i like to make all of my fren happy...

i tot i will be strong...

manatau i cant...

u all face always appear on my mind...

feeling alone......

cant settle down my feeling yet...