27 June 2009 6pm
going to Sungai Ara
to juin liang tuition centre there
coz he wanna had a dinner wif me then
drop me at sungai Nibong bus terminal...
he said wanna bring me eat bak kut teh
cz over terengganu i cant find any of khinzir...
but at the end he bring me eat hawker stall food pulak...
haizzz....
but i appreciated i gt such good fren...
thanks...
when reached bus terminal....
i tot i will leave alone when i received the bus ticket...
but suddenly my best fren:
zi yin
swee heong
appear in front of me..
i shocked
i din expected they all will come sending me...
when that time i very happy
they all help me carried out all my luggages..
thanks dear...
act i very assure that i m not willing to leave
but no choice this is my own decision
going to terengganu to study...
they always console me
"this is jz a part of our life,
its jz a beginning,
u should appreciated that u r accepted by local university..."
FINALLY
i have to leave....
i went up the bus wif exciting feeling...
act in my heart i really not willing to leave..
i have to ge ge act lik excited going to there...
the purpose i do that is prevent they all cry out...
i wave hand to them
n said bye bye to them...
saying alone inside the bus...
"zi yin bye bye,
swee heong bye bye,
lay fang bye bye,
ling xiang bye bye,
juin liang bye bye,
n the last is mummy,papa,mei mei,ah ma
bye bye..."
Then while i saying bye bye to them,
my tears start drop...
when that time i such lik wanna give up d n not going
so far to study...
but i suddenlly recall back the water bottle that ziyin gave me...
on the bottle there gt show "don give up".
so i keep back n continue go to terengganu.
wish that i can wearing a "squre cap" coming back to Penang.
My parents sure will proud of me...
Y my parents din follow me go terengganu???
Y i must going there alone???
if i going wif my parents sure will less down my burden
at least gt ppl can help me carry my luggages.
act i very sad when whole bus student gt ppl accompany them go Umt.
but no choice i have to more independent...
my mum said she wanna accompany me go..
but i said never mind i can go alone..
"mum, don worry me...'
Act i more worried them
if dunno how to go back penang
cz almost here are malays n they even don understand malays languages..
means i more worried abt them n always asking myself if they come wif me
" how they going back to penang??"
" are they reach d??"
"are they lost??"
lots of questions sure will appear on my mind...
in other words
i willing to leave alone...
Going terengganu road r staff
the road r not straight like high-ways.
i cant sleep sweet in the bus there
so when i awake i sure will recall back all the sweet memories
that i have in penang.
a while only my tears start drop again...
when zi yin call, i almost wanna cry out d...
but i told my self i have to strong.
she told me she cried jz now
when i leave.
manatau i go console her pulak...
i almost wanna cry out when she call me...
i call her quickly hang up the call..
i dun 1 let her noe i wanna cry d...
coming terengganu i have cry a lots...
i seldom cry
cz i like smile..
i like to make all of my fren happy...
i tot i will be strong...
manatau i cant...
u all face always appear on my mind...
feeling alone......
cant settle down my feeling yet...
