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Memories

Love
It like the double-edge sword.
It can place you on top of the world.
But
It can also cut you.
Deeper than any wound you have ever know.
You can live,but yet you are death.
You can see, but yet you are blind.
You can talk, but with no voice.
You can breath, with your breath but even has been taken away.
But you can love but yet you remain with no heart.
Sometimes a pass relationship can hurt you so bad.
You simply want to escape.
You find refuge, solace, some place you can hide.
Run away from from the world.   

                            (Memories;DanKhooProductions)

" Its take only a few minute to crush on someone, an hour to love someone, a day to love someone, but it takes lifetime to forget someone"__TRUE__

randomly

·         Lately, my friend was emo-ing and struggling for the definition of the word" best friend". It let me remember back that was me last time. Although i can give advice to her but don't i could make it on my own or not. To be frank, the "best friend" is quite a contradiction matter. You wish that the people you treat them well will definitely the things you get back would be same as what you had contributed. But as our age growing, this matter is like what children would always happened. We can find other ways to let us feel better. The word "best friend" is not definite  as an obligate, it is as treat them sincerely and do not hope anythings back when you contributed. That was wrong definition as an obligation and desire for  return.

·         "Only best friend would show their true selves, they share deep and dark secrets, it comes as a whole package But once you get to know all of that, you need to accept the flaws, and those who manage to do so become better friends. Being a best friend,do it need able to change someone to the way how you live or to change for someone? What would the factors for someone classified as a best friend? Time, influences and understanding. When problems happen, resolution would be the important part of the whole process. The determination of do not give up the relationships between us."

Moody

I was so sad and moody today because all my housemate(family members) graduated. The feeling was mix in my mind, happy is because they done it finally. Sad is because it is an over for all of us here and this is a full stop for the day we used together to study and chit chatting. I promise to myself that there are no tear drop during the convocation. i done it when they went back, but my mood suddenly decreasing and i felt i was alone here again.
I was regret that why when that time i can't used that time to appreciate the days we had together and always       used to arguing and quarrel. Seriously i'm down now. No one know!

I feel nothing here without u all. I need my family members.  

Blog

I was wondering why people like to write their blog?? At first i created this is just for fun to posting my matters share to others. After posted some articles, i felt that this was not the only purpose for posting blog. I think posting blog at certain period is useful and meaning for my future. Sometime when i'm free, i will likely to read back all the blogs that i had wrote. Sometime it let me went back to my last memories that i have almost forgotten. Sometime i felt that the way i wrote my blog quite childish of my thinking when that time.

Time pass very fast,  it's almost the end of my uni life. This semester will be my last studied semester in UMT. I have things that can't put down here and will be gonna super miss here although i always used to complaint here. After this semester, everything will be end up the stories here. Friends, lectures and the peaceful life here. After this we will go back to our own life. My feeling is mixed, because i really hope that time pass quickly so that i can go back to my sweetly home town. But the other side, i couldn't left my comrades that used to fight together.

Anyway, this is just a small matter for everyone of us. Because parting is just a chapter of our life. Sure everyone will face it. At last, i wish all my friends can success in their future!!  

Tolerate and Fuss

    What do you understand about the word of "tolerate" and the word of "fuss"??

    I think these words' definition is easily to be understand but seriously it is hard to be implemented. I'm the one who trying hard to tolerate and not to fuss a small matter. Sometimes, don't fussing because it will cause you to be a unhappy people. But i'm wondering why people will not tolerate for a small matter instead of they choosing to care so much. Will they feel happy??  No wander those of them have a lot of worries and i wish i'm not to be this. That why i trying my hard to tolerate. 


"I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do. I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do. "

by Robert A. Heinlein

Everythings Change

What is the meaning of my blog theme? EVERYTHING CHANGE?

Is it means that i have change of myself due to the changing of environment and age? Actually i also don't know why i have this theme. i just saw back the pictures that i have taken during my secondary school time and form 6 time. It really surprising me that what i have done during that time. Just realized that it was not me, it totally different of me now. No one will know what's my past.

Actually, i have seldom have best friends in my life although i'm closing with everyone. My life actually is less of sense of security. I have normally with depend to others. I remember that when i was form 2, i have change to top class due to my better result.I was cried very hard that time because i'm forced to leave my best friends. I was alone during my form 2 although it is a good class and good environment to study. But no ones know that i'm alone that time. I have been suffer for 2 years that time. Besides, my form 1 best friends told me that i have change a lot because i have friends with the students that have better results and ignored her. No ones know i was very sad when she told me this because she is always in my mind although we are different class. One thing i can said that i will never forget you once i treat you as my best friends although whatever you have done to me. Best friends will never change.

Due to the increasing of my age, i have change to be more mature without cry out easily. I swear to myself that i won't drop my tears easily. But it is a lie,i never change from this also.